I don't want this to be over...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Read kristalynn's blog just now and i'm just feeling so guilty.

TO KRISTALYNN MY DEAR:

Hey my dear, I don't know if it's me or isit the other seniors, but yes i agree too, thr's always a limit to how much one can take, and even though we're seniors we shouldn't order you all around and stuffs ): sorry dearie. If you feel that its like this again next time (hopefully thr isn't but yea) thn just tell us yea?

I'msorryi'msorryi'msorry.

I know a thousand sorrys won't make things rewind, but I hope you'll forgive us all.

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cca used to cheer me up considerably to no end, but nowadays I just don't feel the love like I used to ya know?

Its like as though I've changed.

I used to look forward to going to school just for the tuesdays and fridays with the comclubbers. cca was the bright spot on the horizon for me as the people there are all the ones I zihigh with, cry with, emo with, get angry with.

Now...

True, we're still together, going (more or less) strong, and still as one. But lately I just don't get that sense of love and all that I had for comclub.

I don't know if its just me changing or what, but I don't want this to happen. So many things have changed, and comclub's one of the only constants in my life. If my feelings for it were to change I think there wouldn't be any form of order any more in life.

Maybe its cos of the people, or maybe its just cos of the many many things that's making life so damn irritating and sucky, but sometimes change isn't good, cos its irreversible.

I just am so tired right now. I don't wanna think about all these things. Especially not about you.

♡ I'll remember you { 12:08 AM }