Everything would be but a dream after this...

2009-05-11T18:26:00.001+08:00

Sorry people, but I think having a blog is really too tiring. Especially since nowadays I don't feel the mood to blog. So, I'm officially going to stop blogging :D

If I have the mood next time, perhaps I'll revive this.

If (:

Its been a long time.

2009-03-15T13:20:00.002+08:00

Okay, so I've been reallyreally lag in blogging nowadays. Its either I don't have the mood to blog, or I don't have the time. LOL

Its been a month since I last blogged, and actually there's nothing much blog-worthy about. Just alot of angst and frustration, though there were things that were on the more positive side.

Lessons were rather okay, i listen in physics class (omggg) and think that maths is getting wayy tough. Stupid luh. Year 4 life really sucks man. Now that holidays are here (actually they aren't even holidays for us its more like a break from school while continuing to study your head out) I find myself having less time than during school days. =.= What a life.

Okay I realise I haven't much to talk about. So, yeah. Shall stop here.

Tired ._.

How?

2009-02-18T20:25:00.001+08:00

I have never been so confused and torn between two choices in my entire life.

On one hand, I know this is something that I really will miss out on if I choose to say no this time, but then again, if I accept this chance I know there'll be repercussions.

And I don't know if i'm ready to do this.

Everyone I asked for opinions all say that I should really think twice because it will mean being distracted from school for 2 to 3 months, but I somehow think its worth it if I truly enjoy the process for those few months.

I really don't know what I want anymore.
Someone, help.

Vday! :D

2009-02-14T23:55:00.007+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY EVERYONE!

I am so freaking touched! :D A big THANK YOU to everyone who’s either wished me happy vday or gave me cards/sweets/chocolates/things :D

Went out with rvcc today! In the morning sylvia edmund and me got our icecream treat from junkang :D like YAY FINALLY ahaha. Talked crap and walked around jp for a short while before we went to meet the others at je. Serming was late for 20 minutes. tsktsktsk see lah, you make you juniors wait for you. So bad lah! Nahh just kidding! :D

Then, we mrt-ed to vivo to meet qien and chengyu and ate BK. I almost choked on my food luh, stupid cat. Next time I shall be smart and not sit beside chengyu that garfield whenever I'm eating. Sure will want to slap him one, with his stupid actions. =.=

Then, was actually rather excited about Kbox one leh, but after we took 166 and actually got there I almost fainted luh. The queue so damn long!? In the end the person said we have to wait until 5 plus, then we just gave up on kbox and went jp arcade instead.

Arcade was as crowded as jp/vivo luh =.= sian. First thing we did was to go play daytona HAHA. The stupid machine I used bloody screwed, the speed doesn't seem to increase. I THINK IT EVEN DECREASES LAH. WTH. Anyway, after a few rounds then we went to play the bishy bashy thingy. Damn lol. And I stupidly tapped unknowingly lah, wasted my 3 additional bucks. Stupid.

After that while serming and qien were playing bball machine, yunfei junkang chengyu and me were camping at the jubeat there and watching two guys play. They're both pros lah. Especially one of them, use only one hand to play advanced songs. Zai kias. Wait damn long after that finally got a chance :D:D HAHA junkang and chengyu play until frigging hilarious hahahaha. And me and twin failed a stage too ): aww hahaha. Played one song with the four of us sharing the 16 buttons. Then, the zaikias were looking at us =.=

HEEHEE I still have to say this: JUBEAT ROCKS :D

While serming and chengyu went to see LJJ twin junkang qien and i left, them for home and me for vivo, to meet my parents again. Did the normal routine of eating and then walked around vivo before heading for home. Reached home at 11. ZZZ was tired out but HAHA the day ended amazingly well :D:D:D:D

Wonderful day todayyyyyy :D

2009-01-31T21:44:00.006+08:00

Today was hilarioussssssss :D

Went for piano in the morning. Nothing new, but I screwed up my memory singing and one or two minor scales. Theory was like shit. Seriously. I think I should go re-study every single thing about theory already. Its been like, 5 to 6 years of not touching theory?! All the information all flew out of my brain already can ):

Anyway, after that disasterous last few minutes I mrt-ed all the way to boonlay and went to junkang's house to (supposedly) do multi schedule. BUT the day was rather spent helping junkang to pack his room AND TO CUT CHENGYU'S HAIR :D

While the guys (junkang qien chengyu) were doing safmc, I walked in and found yunfei sylvia and edmund packing jk's room. I immediately stunned can. ROFL. I tell you, the end result was so damn different from the initial one. LOL we unearthed alot of random stuffs and worksheets + pencils were like flooding the entire place. Plus, sylvia was having a wonderful time hitting people with all the 30 cm rulers that she found [plus one is a 30cm 'gold bar' can?! :D ahahahahaha! ]. Luckily I was at the other side of the room lah.

Then came the wonderful task of the day :D Eh, you gotta admit, our hairstyling skills are wonderful can. I initially thought it would turn out weird lo. BUT IT DIDN'T :D Its like, we cut the back with the sole intent of making it stand up can?! Then we thinned his hair (cause its like, very thick -duh-) and tried to cut the bottom and his sideburns :D I thought the back, top, and the sideburns were done very nicely. But!!! Chengyu's fringe was uh, rather screwed :X OOPS. Sorry luh don't emo okay chengyu? The most we all bring you to the barber to get your fringe fixed kay :D

After that it was junkang's turn to get his fringe cut. LOL but its like no difference :X eh twin, next time when his hair at the back grow long enough already go try out your hairstyling skills again hor LOL. Then at around 5.50 we left jk's house and I went home while the others went to jp to have their dinner. ROFL. Wish I could have joined you guys lol.

Now's time to do homeworkkkkk ):

Sudden longing.

2009-01-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

I miss 2B'ohseven.
A lot.

Somehow.

):

Glam's the word of the day :D <3>

2009-01-24T15:32:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA GLAM DAY WITH RVCC TODAYYYY <3>

Ahaha, today rocked manzxc hahaha At the start of the day there was stupid boring CNY celebration. What the _ can, before that there was still lessons ._. Had chem and we went through the assignment and copied loads of stuffs. After which we went to the hall for the two freaking hour long celebration.

Only thing that was memorable / I can remember was the CLDDS performance and the dance one. Oh, and that Lizhen tio scam have to sing a song on stage. You're brave mann. If it were me I bet I'd just rather die LOL

Then, we (being meien yunfei me qien zhijie junkang cien serming yingho and edmund) met in the comlab and waited for GSM to finish his wonderful homework. Then, 166-ed to harbourfront and changed into our glam clothes :D:D:D HAHAHA Actually for almost all of the guys they look like how they do normally when we all go out luh, just a nicer version ROFL Yunfei uhh, big change man. Usually so normal and dressed down one lah HAHA

Then, mrt-ed to Plaza Sing. and watched the 2.05pm slot for Inkheart. Okay lah the movie, rather touching, but very usual-fairy-tale-ending-ish loh. Like any normal happily-ever-after story :D but on the whole the story is nice :D

Anyway, we went to ZoneX at DG and WOOT it was damn fun :D Got hooked onto bball machines and jubeat (!!!). Serming and cien wanted to try jubeat but this group of guys there hor, kept switching and taking turns within their friends and we just gave up and played bball instead :D [Ehhh serming and zhijie high score leh high score leh!]

Took (or at least tried to take) pictures at the map-board area at DG and the result was many trials of unglam/uncompleted/retarded shots LOL All uploaded on facebook liao, go see go see! After the pictures meien and cien left for home ):

MRT-ed to jp and junkang went home while we went to arcade again. HAHAHAHA This time we got the chance to play jubeat and omgawd we failed once or twice loh so sad D: HAHA Then after that played the bball machines again and we went home :D

[p.s. twin uh that guy is freaking pro lah! O_O we should aspire to be like him man HAHAHAHA]

Random emo shit

2009-01-21T19:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm living with this facade. Its like sometimes I can't / don't / won't let anyone else know exactly what I am thinking. I exercised my freedom to choose (HAH LA homework man ROFL) to show others the side they want to see.

Even though it is tiring to do this, I know things would be much worse if I don't.

Don't want to think about it. Because I know there's no point worrying about it until the time comes. Please let everything be alright and let everyone be happy with the arrangements.
I don't suppose anyone would understand what I wrote, but its just as well.
Maybe its even better that way.

I wish that I can find the words to say.

2009-01-20T21:25:00.004+08:00

Recently, life's been all about homework, cca, homework, cca, and more homework. It seems like there's no other reason and meaning for us all to go to school luh. Its at times like these whereby I really realise school is boring.

But anyway, nothing special happened yet since I last posted, with the exception of plans for this friday's glam day out ROFL. Hopefully all the rvcc guys don't come out wearing some really normal clothes lo, its not always we get to go out in nicer, more presentable clothes together. HAHA.

Aye okay le bah its time to go back to homework ):

Replies to tags!

SM:
Hah, come on lah my HTML has always been -coughs- pro one can -coughs- :D

zhijiez:
HAHA yea I'm going to change the link soon :D

ed:
hahahahaha will waste your money lah hp blog LOL so ke lian lah D:

mavis:
LOL yo :D

ed:
ROFL replied to tag le HAHA

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aye, whenever you want to yeah.

SM:
YOU THEN EMO LO LOSER ;D

Just too little too late.

2009-01-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYLVIA AND CHENGYU!

You two are fantastically fifteen already, and the same age as me aww I'm so sad ): HAHAHAHA hope that you two will find a direction in your life and have a wonderful year ahead of you kay :D Don't emo, don't stress, and jiayou all the waaaaaay!

Haha. Today was freaking fun. I haven't updated in ages, but the main interesting and note-worthy things were:

CCA practically everyday in preperation for FLL this past sunday (omg its over alr ): )
2 times of seeing the sec1s doing their apittude test (seriously outragous man LOL)
The day of FLL itself (couldn't go in so I was stuck outside rather literally :x)

Although we didn't win much but its really the whole process that counts (to me at least) :D JIAYOU PEOPLE. We'll do things better, quicker, more on task next year yea!

Celebrating chengyu & sylvia's birthday TOGETHER :D

HAHAHAHAHA it was the ultimate entertainment luh, the way sylvia tried to open her present. I thought we were evil, but ohwell :D

<3> rvcc!

I don't know. Maybe its for the best.
[edit] you know what, it isn't going to be healthy, nor is it going to work out. [/edit]

Is that the only way to resolve this?

2009-01-04T14:26:00.003+08:00

Damnit. Why must things be like this?
Too many things to say, yet I don't know how to say them.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ZOMG rofl

2009-01-01T14:39:00.002+08:00

Just a short post to liven things up HAHA.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE WOOHOOOOOO

New year, new resolutions, a whole new start. Hopefully everything will go well for everyone, and that nobody feels emo anymore ROFL.

To the FLL people: JIAYOU KAY. Make the best out of these 10+ more days and don't get tooooo stressed!

Will post a quiz later on. After i'm done with it that is hahahahaha.

i dread school ):

RVCC CHALET ROCK :D

2008-12-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA After three wonderful days, I have to admit.

I LOVE RVCC
[more than ever!]

HAHAHA. The time flew by damn fast luh. Its like there's still so many things I haven't do there yet!! D: Next year's chalet better come quickly :D:D

Before chalet on sunday a few of us went to Giant to buy all the things for chalet and placed them at my house. Then the day before chalet yf krist serming and jk came to my house to marinate/skewer the chicken and get ready the fish :D Damn hilarious i tell you, but i lazy type out lah you go serming's blog read :D

Okay, now the official chalet post:

DAY#1:

Went out at 11 plus to meet yunfei, krist, sylvia, serming, junkang, and edmund at cck. Haha, sylvia was late (as usual O.O) and so was serming lawl. Went to longjohn's for breakfast and the ice problem nearly caused us to walk to limbang (serming loves that place) HAHA. On the way I bet with serming about the time it takes to walk to my house and ZZZZ i lost walauuuu.

Ate at my house and then played slapjack and 99. Everyone's eardrums almost burst thanks to syl who screamed so loud i think even my neighbours can hear us HAHA [naw lah just kidding :D].

Gathered everything and went on our way, met ziwei at je by some stroke of coincidence and on the train bound for pasir ris serming became DL cause we girls too -ahem- hyper alr HAHA.

Reached pasir ris at around 2 plus 3 and we went off first to put the stuffs at aranda. Initially I thought we'd have to wait at aranda but so qiao3 we met qien and his family just as we reached there. HAHA So checked in and krist + yf and don't know who became obsessed over this chiobu thr HAHAHAHA.

Walked to our chalet unit and WHOAAAA it was on the 3rd floor. So high lo. Was saying something about upgrading from the second floor last year to this year's third floor, and whether or not we'll get the "penthouse" on the fourth. HAHAHA. The unit number was, as I remembered, was 2322. Nice number right? :D

Packed all the things into the small fridge and put all the equipment and stuffs on the countertop then we all zao4 to cheers to buy charcoal, wire mesh and some syrup for the drinks. Met justin, yunzheng and another person (can't rmb) on the way back and at the chalet we settled to play slapjack again, which halfway through the others came in.

Was damn high lo. HAHA. Played a few rounds of 99 and slapjack and went down to get ready for the bbq :D:D surprisingly this year's bbq is rather well done despite the slow start. ahha. After we skewered everything the girls slacked while the guys went to start the fire. HAHA which was when we realised we didn't buy lighter /brought matches. LAWL

Cook cook cook play play play then chat damn long with each other. HAHA weisheng very easy to bully for food one HAHAHAHHAHAHA ;D [Can't really remember much from the bbq cos too many things and too many people alr ahaha]

Then at around 7 plus 8 like that we went kbox. Sang damn many songs from then all the way till 2 in the morning until my voice was really gone like mad. Drank damn lots of water in the hopes

that my voice'll be intact HAHA. Was rather DL at the start [just ask serming mannnnn] because of certain stuffs but then things became totally better as the night progressed alr :D Can't really

remember what songs we sang, but I remembered we spam jaychou's songs like siao :D HAHA and shebangs was freaking HILARIOUS HAHAHA ;D weisheng and chengyu pro jaychou fans one, chengyu rapped ye4 que3 somemore

-standing ovation-

HAHA Then at the end (in the morning) we went to mac to buy things to eat and chengyu bought extra strong strepsils which [almost] everyone koped to sooth their over-worked throats HAHA.

Went back to chalet and everyone sort of split up, with a huge bunch of people went into the room and gambled on blackjack, two group of people playing mahjong and the rest of us sitting in the living room playing pig and indian poker. HAHAHA Sadly enough I became the first level 6 pig. so sad right ROFLLL ended up doing a double forfeit with yunfei. Nose to nose lah not that bad.

BUUUUUUT, for indian poker the forfeits were (coughs) rather sick [all thanks to yuheng lah that sick guy tsktsktsk] There was one what, tongue to ear, tongue to tounge, nose to nose, mouth to mouth, and tongue to butt (ZZZ =.=) HAHAHA yunfei tio forfeits so many times and had to do them with almost all the guys. evil one lah the forfeits. luckily i only tio only tio twice. -thanks god-

Oh, which reminds me. SERMING LAH THAT IDIOT. Still haven't take revenge on him lah. IDIOT. lol

[Backtrack, we caught edmund as the first one to sleep HAHA then we all got our sundaes :D WOOHOO]

Anyway, after that we played murderer cause there happened to be a large blanket available (HAHA not really rather it was stolen from jeffry :D) then play until everyone sian of murderer le.

Some went off to sleep leaving me yunfei lizhen weijie joseph ernest and yuheng talking cock all the way till around 8 plus 9 when we went off for breakfast after waking some people up.

DAY#2 & DAY#3:

Bought breakfast at mac's then brought it to maccafe to eat. Then we went back to the room and lagged. Sat around and played 99 and slapjack a few rounds first, then went on to this game similar to slapjack but must change everyone's name. Damn DL cause i keep forgetting everyone's names and tio owned damn many times. SIAN. LOL

After that i got sianed of playing then went to the mahjong table, where i played a few rounds. Then rejoined back the group on the floor who were talking about random crap topics LOL Then at 12.30 around there we got ready to go to www.

So, after we stun at www the ticketing area there for awhile in the end me sylvia meien lizhen edmund qien raffles junkang chengyu jeffry weisheng mingsheng yingho serming and cornelius went in. Had to put our specs in the locker lo, so .... vulnerable and so ... easy targetted siah :X Luckily we were in a huge group if not i sure cannot see a single crap one.

Then we went inside the shiok river. Wah damn cold lah initially not shiok at all ZZZ HAHA Then went on all the rides. Tio seperated from the rest of the group with lizhen jeffry qien and raffles. But we found the rest and went on the stupid ride. Wahlao i regretted going with syl man she screamed into my ear like shit like that. Next time i sure wont' go on any ""thrilling" rides with her LMAO.

Then uh, we went for the slide up. WAHLAO DAMN SCARY CAN?! i almost flew out of the whole darn thing lah. Then I was telling lizhen that I won't scream. HAHA i didn't but lizhen did. I thought she wouldn't rofl

Then we went and grab loads of floats [actually its one each] and all climbed onto one while a few of us dragged everyone to the deeper end of the tsunami pool and we linked floats into a circleeeee :D Funnily enough the circle ALWAYS breaks and we'll revert back into a line lah D: HAHAHA those people who were dragging us very poor thing luh must have had muscle aches after that due to all the pulling HAHA ;D Got alot of times we tio pushed all the way back to the shallow end by the waves. Then became damn hard just to go all the way back lah

Went for another ride. Then HAHA raffles bloody hell screamed all the way down just for the fun of it ROFL =.= Then went to the foam bath. yingho lah like kid like that keep pestering us :D haha then don't know who was it went to pile up loads of foam on top of my head and my whole body so LOL lah hahaha

Was damn fun lah. hahaha cause we went the damn kidd ypool and had this wild time going on all the slides. Then me and serming chiong-ed around the place trying to see which one was the most fun. In the end we play until there was this covered one so DL go so slow. Make me so high then suddenly -.-

HAHA Then we went to stand under the huge bucket of water and tio poured over. I almost fell lo hahahaha damn pain somemore. brain concussion. Then we sat in a circle. Initially wanted to lame lame play game then in the end we just sat there until the second pouring of water started :D

Then we left www cos we still needed to go bathe and then rent bikes :D:D:D Went back chalet and it was DAMNDAMN COLD CAN brrrr~ haha then we took our bags and went to bathe. In the female toilet was these two famiies and WAH they take damn long can? I feel damn guilty cos i was the only one who bathed properly. O.o Then the guys went to book the bikes first without the girls cause we took rather long. HAHA.

Mmmm we walked back to the chalet then dinner-ed at burger king。Crapped with everyone then went back. Can't really remember what I did there now alr leh AHAHA but i think its either 99/slapjack/mahjong ROFL then around 9 plus 10 a bunch of us went to the arcade. HAHAHAHA

Krist and I DDR-ed and darn it so diulian failed the second stage HAHAHAHA Then daytona-ed, played shooting hoops, then watched others play the cute cute drum thing and the spamming thing one HAHA At around 11 plus 12 like that we went back to the chalet after going to cheers and had this DAMN confusing discussion for the shifts in biking.

Was in shift1 with sylvia meien yingho qien raffles junkang and serming. Damn DL lah i hurt myself almost immediately. wt_. Then continued riding to the end and WTH fell again so suay. must be my reflexes slow alr D: HAHAHAHAHA Rode in one circle in the middle and go all the way to the end. Took picture and this ____ guy so toot thought the picture quality was okay when it SUCKED LIKE CRAP. HAHA

Then mingsheng tio caught by us :D and we rode all the way back then shift2 people went off. I limped up the bloody stairs can so ): < lol. malcolm was damn hilarious go call bingle to ask if
got cotton buds. THEN BINGLE YOU HAHAHAHAHA SO HILARIOUS HEARD WRONGLY ROFLLL. Then qien meien lizhen and yingho were with me in the kitchen watching weijie tend to my wounds. HAHA sorry people whom I held your hands cos I grabbed damn hard i think :X

Then i kind of forgot what we did alr. cos almost 2 full days without sleep already leh. very the tired liao. I remember making noodles cause I was hungry and playing arnd 2 rounds of mahjong then I fell asleep on the chair [vacant thanks to weisheng :D]

Woke up twice facing the mahjong table and the first time they all were playing. Second time they all four were on the table sleeping HAHA damn funny. I remember thinking why was it so quiet :D Then woke up and saw alot of people still asleep except the mahjong people who resumed play again. Gave my blanket to mingsheng cause he was shivering lo.

After around 10 we went off for breakfast. 8 people roke the bikes back and returned them. Unfortunately i couldn't cause of the stupid injury ROFL. Then bought mac's breakfast to maccafe and ate. went back chalet, played 1 round of slapjack then packed up and check up :D:D:D

Blahblahblah and took this loop service bus one round in pasir ris. Took the mrt and we flooded half the entire first carriage :D rode all the way from one end to the other to boonlay to play bball. Slept on the train abit more after a few rounds of djmax :D

Walked around jp2 awhile before deciding to go to kfc while syl went back to get the bball and edmund treated us to our sundae :D:D thanks edmunddd!!!! Then stone and joke and went to the court. Found it was full then we took bus to syl's house to play.

Cause of all the hardcore guys we (the girls and a few guys) split and shared court with this random stranger. Then after that rained and suddenly we joined back ROFL Then we lagged then me and syl played abc then yf got hit by the ball D:

Then SERMING FELL AND INJURED HIMSELF zzz so poorthing haha. Then weijie was initially tending to him thn after he left awhile i left th game too to go see how he was. Then slowly more and more people came over. Suddenly while serming was putting his hand over chengyu's shoulder he suddenly like very dizzy like that and held on to chengyu the cat HAHA then he looked damn stunned and his eyes damn big. we all thought he was joking cause we thought he was joking or sth. Then whn he lay down on the floor he was like having damn slight convulsions or sth. Scared the bloody hell out of us lah D: D:

Then we realised he fainted and we told him what happened whn he woke up. After he rested weijie lent him 10 bucks thn we cabbed back to serming's house. Chengyu held on to serming all the way until serming was in the cab. Then me raffles and edmund took cab with him and went up. After that smsed syl and told her he was feeling btr/more okay alr and walked home. Wah piang you really scared us okay serming. Take care lah please. :D

Anyway serming i totally agree what you say lo. We're so much more than a cca, we're a family and so much more. Even though we're so different and so diverse i think its an important reason why we're so close, because we learn how important each and everyone of us is lo.

Hahahaha
All in all,
I love rvcc.

Thanks for being there in all my most wonderful memories ya'all. <3>

Sometimes things hit rock-bottom before improving

2008-12-02T15:29:00.005+08:00

It's solitary confinement here at home till friday and I have absolutely nothing to do except for some gonghans and zuowens.

And yes, I've been on hiatus for a substantial amount of time.
Didn't felt like blogging much is why.

These few weeks were brillant though. Been going back to school practically everyday, although I've had absolutely nothing to do ever since last week's monday. Lunch time everyday was friking hilarious, and they more or less made up for the time spent doing nothing much O.O

Went to the chinese exhibition with twin yinghao junkang and qien, afterwhich we went to Sitex. Haha, lunch was a hilarious affair, and qien and me felt like we were being very bright hahahahaha. Met junkang (who didn't join us four for lunch) and bused to HwaChong from clementi. By some stroke of coincidence we saw sonjia on the mrt platform lol. Yinghao was being his retarded self and mistook 165 for 156.

Yinghao: Eh! 156 Just left leh...
...
..
.
Yinghao: Oh, that was 165 (cue paiseh look)

ROFLROFLROFL

When we were at the main gate of HC we felt like we were going into a villa. And the exhibition was so frigging far away from the main gate. Only thing to say about it was that it's damn stuffy and hot luh. All the fans weren't enough man.

Then, took 67 back to cck (haha I could have went home lawl) and went to the arcade to play daytona :D Its been a loooooong time since we played lo. Reminded me of the days we spent at JEC. Lol Then we made a fool of ourselves by playing 2 vs 2 on something similar to DDR. HAHAHAHA but it was damn fun lawl, afterwhich we played this spamming game and something similar to D.Jmax. So sad can, after so much practice on the PSP, we failed the second stage.

We need more practice *smiles widely*
ROFL

Had a very early dinner and mrt-ed all the way to expo. By the time we reached there it was close to 7 plus already, and there was like still hordes of people over there. Walked around and around checking the prices and the different brands of earphones, then yh and yf finally decided on the creative one and went all the way back lol. By the time we left there it was about 9 plus already.

[sidenote: surprisingly, ben was there too lol. Didn't see him thought ROFL]

The rides to and fro was damn hilarious can. We saw junkang's lame side which only comes out at night and the auntie-ish side of everyone HAHAHAHA -.- Twin had attained the highest level of laughing - laughing without a single sound at all. ROFL.

Overall it was damn fun haha. Now awaiting rvcc chalet! <3>

How come this happened? ):

2008-11-19T22:21:00.005+08:00

Its been so long since we've talked.
Aye,
would we still have a chance to do all those that we've talked about then?
I wonder if we'll ever go back to how we were before
I wonder if you'll really be there for my wedding, just like we've talked about so many times.
I wonder if you hate me
Its only now that I realise how far we've drifted.

But just so you know, you mean the world to me.
Still.

Bowling WOOHOO :D <3> rvcc!

2008-10-31T19:37:00.007+08:00

Haha today was a freaking fun day ROFL. Didn't remember that I've laughed as much as today before. HAHAHAHA.

First things first today was the annual RVSports' Day rofl. Didn't run haha cause I know I'd just humiliate myself in front of everyone today if I participated. Heng didn't get chosen haha. Sat with qq and sylvia today and our behinds hurt like crap after sitting there for practically the entire stretch of 3 - 4 hours.

Then, after dragging the sports day so long until practically 12 plus that yunfei had to wait outside so long, the student leaders went for meeting zzz haha. Then after they were done we FINALLY managed to go for bowling :D WAHOOOOO (:

Took 188 (just realised today that 188 goes to cck straight lo. I feel so dumb ROFL) and missed the busstop, resulting in us having to walk back quite a distance. HAHAHA was "blaming" serming for this, just like how it was his fault that we WALKED all the way from QUEENSWAY TO COMMONWEALTH rofl. Stupid lah lol.

Initially we wanted to eat first luh can, so hungry, but then cos we're afraid there won't be any lanes left if we went and came back later, plus the guy there said we can't book lanes at all (so sad can wth T_T) we decided to put off lunch and started a game.

WHOA hahahaha it was unbelievably freakinggg fun. Split into two teams (cos two lanes) with Chengyu, Krist, yunfei, meien, me, yinghao in one team and serming, raffles, lianghui, qien, junkang, yingho, and edmund in another.

HAHA The poor floor seriously needs alot of bandage can? We were saying like, as long as certain people were there the floor would break and then suffer a lot a lot. LOL. Then yinghao was being sick and using the thingy which is originally for blowing away excess powder from your fingers to blow his there. ROFL Say what want to produce more _____ LOL LOL LOL

[I just realised luh, that yinghao was drinking greentea, so actually it cancels out each other luh LOL kill all the excess that was produced during the cooling process ROFL okay that was sick]

Lol, then met the 2B`07 and a small number of 3C`08 people together at the CSC there, they went to bowl too hahahaha. Too bad I couldn't make it for 2B outing ): SORRY PEOPLE T_T

Hahahaha, I felt damn proud of myself can?! I won serming HAHAHAHA by one point =.= lol 82 v.s 81. But krist was damn zai, got like 100+ points. LOL Pwned all the guys even can? LOLLLLL.

Then by the time we've finished one game it was already like, 4 0'clock already. Totally stunned that we could spend 1 and 1/2 hours on just one game alone. Then most of the guys except yinghao, yingho and chengyu stayed behind for another game while us rest went off for our (very very very late) lunch. Yinghao was saying that it was more like dunch, or uh, linner. HAHAHAHA Mix between lunch + dinner. ROFL ROFL ROFL

Had subway for dinner and had a ball of a time there (HAHA ball. reminds me of something we were talking about ROFL). Very funny, because we were laughing our heads off at subway, and I feel very embarrassed to have chengyu as my junior :X HAHA nah i'm not luh hahahaha. ROFL Chengyu's ugly side was shown. poor garfield :X haha (:

Halfway through the other guys came to subway and had their meal and it was chatchatchatchat and laughlaughlaughlaugh rofl :D

Ahwell, time just flew. Then it was time to go home already ):

SENTOSA OUTING WITH RVCC! <3>

2008-10-27T01:37:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA SENTOSA OUTING WAS A HUGEEEE SUCCESS :D
YAYYY :D

Haha was too drained on monday so didn't managed to blog about it :D Thus, since I have alot of time now I shall do just that lol

Mmmm, so, on monday the number of people who went was like, 19 can?! We ruled that area of palawan beach HAHAHAHAHA. But first, a few of us started the day by going to JEC's mac for (possibly) the last breakfast we'll have together there. Stupid lah why must JEC close down for one WHOLE year just for upgrading? ZZZ =.=

Was supposed to meet serming and edmund at cck before going je one, then serming was so retarded, cause he couldn't find his club tee and didn't ask me to bring my extra one earlier. ROFL Then zzz edmund was late too, so instead I went straight to JE. Seems like I was the last (besides those two), so we went mac first lo.

ZZZ there was this women who was looking at us in mac, like we've done something wrong like that *narrows eyes* come on luh like we'll pon school like that, its valid okay!? Marking day rocks lah HAHAHA. Even if want to pon school we'll also be smarter and do it in small groups mah.

Then we went to JE and met the rest, then HAHA when we reached vivo we heard meien talking about cornelius and his *cough* facination over WINX CLUB AHAHAHAHA *coughs* LOL Then we went to _________ ROFL. I think after this outing all the guys are uh more "educated" about certain topics already ROFLLLL (And Yingho you better stop being so sick okay?! You're even more well informed than we are HAHA)

So, after buying the drinks and everything we took monorail to sentosa. It was damn LOL cause we missed one for waiting for mingsheng yingho and meien to take the sentosa map AHAHA. And we found out more about how the height of the monorail is from the ground is scary haha.

Then we went to palawan cause we know that siloso sure alot of rvians. Saw kristalynn and bernard and 2D queueing up to take the tram. Haha, the moment we reached there damn shuang luh totally no one one. Then we immediately go draw the court for beachvolleyball and had funfunfuh yo :D

MMM, highlights of the beach volleyball game were aplenty, and the first thing is we can't even pass 5 times without dropping the ball on the ground. Quite T_T actually but HAHAHAHA cornelius tio hit over -ahem- THERE, and sylvia had one horrible concussion to her head thanks to (none other than) the greatest LEE YING HO.

ROFL.

Then the wind picked up lo, and WEISHENG became damn pro. HAHA Must be because of windy that's why *nods head*. Then everyone tried to serve at least once. AND I almost got hit by the ball. Damn scary can. If I had moved forward a bit more when talking to serming i'd have been bonked by that ball ROFL All your fault luh serming. Tsktsk HAHA

Oh, then started to drizzle alittle, so we abandoned our volleyball game and went into the water, which was damn salty and stung our eyes can. Played monkey (with zhijie serming and _ whom i forgot) being the monkeys ROFL. AND WE'RE NOT NOOB KAY SERMING YOU WANT DIE ISIT =.= We're too pro for you already. Most of the people very lucky didn't get the "honor" of being monkey. You know how difficult it is to try and catch a ball in the water? ZZZ

Haha, then we played this damn retarded and childish but utterly fun game called chicken HAHA. I actually tio piggy back by twin one, then I got pushed into the water ): walao scared me okay. Then it became the other way around, and walaooooo yinghao and mingsheng that team plus serming and junkang that team all target us can!? And sylvia and meien didn't play much HAHAHAHA.

Then came the damn retarded + childish but very fun part ahah. We started to build something like this dam and what sand wall thing to "fight" nature (aka the sea flowing inland HAHA) Then in the end we build halfway water went in T_T so we gave up and had this sand+seaweed fight :D WOOHOO ROFL Haha, sylvia tio aimed so many times by th 3 musketeers so poor thing lol Then WEISHENG (grrr) go aim everyone, in the end everyone's ears and hair have sand. LOL

Luckily for us got our personal "david gan" HAHAHAHAHA yingho so nice never charge us leh. Eh, where's my pay? I'm your wonderful assistant hor kay :D HEEHEEHEE

Then half of us were totally hungry and tired so we went off to buy lunch, but not before going to the toilet to wash off all the sand and saltwater on us hahaha. Freaking freezing can in 7-11, when we first went in all dripping wet and shivering. Then we quickly went in, buy, put hot water and everything, and went out. HAHAHA Camped in this sunny-but-not-so-sunny-until-very-hot spot in the sand and ate :D

Eating under the sun with them in a circle really makes the cupnoodles more delicious HAHA :D Then the other half went to buy food and joined us and we just tanned there :D Then after that yingho + yinghao + mingsheng go be disgusting and mixed everyone's leftover noodles and soup and added sand into the containers of the noodles. So lame can LOL =.=

After awhile the KIND KIND SERMING let us bury him and HAHAHAHAHA we tortured him until siao lah HAHAHA. We had damn loads of fun man. Even have a recording of it kay! LOL Plus, someone went to pinch and pull his toe HAHAHA made himn damn ticklish.

Lagged abit, then left zhiwei (so poor thing see! how come we so bad leave junior there alone O.O) to take care of our bags and play sand while we go walk across the bridge. Saw the 2D people and (SO BAD RIGHT) we daoed krist and only went high at the sight of bernard. T.T lol

On the bridge they go lame rocked the brige and tried to scare sylvia but ahaha didn't work AWW. Climbed all the way up to the top of one of the two towers there and I swear I could feel my legs breaking after all that jumping and running about in the sea. HAHA Then we got some random guy take group photo YAY (though i got saboed can ZZZ that's beside the point lol)+

Then we lagged somemore and took pity on zhiwei T_T went back to find him. On the way back the guys go bully bernard and krist and then we went off to bathe WOOHOO ;D hahahaha twin ah you very sick and blur only realise got _ in the box AFTER you've finished today's activities LOL.

Then after we bathe and all came back blahblahblah the guys went for their turn. AND I TURNED BLACKER OKAY just not red :D okay maybe on the nose abit got but still :D not as bad as say, twin or sylvia OR SERMING AHAHAHAHAHA Then we went to jec took neos (which were hilarious), decorated them, and I ZZZ-edly needed to rush home. MRT-ed with ester and home sweet home mannnn :D

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YAY I'M FINALLY DONE WITH THIS HEEHEE :D Sorry luh sylvia i lag HAHA :D

RVCC <3>!

What a unproductive day

2008-10-26T14:26:00.003+08:00

I realise I'm a hopeless person who gets distracted easily.

Was supposedly doing the design for the notice board (which is currently rotting and utterly empty now T_T) but I find myself bloghopping, blogging, and going on to face book.

I suppose I'd need to lock myself up in a tiny room and sit down with nothing but my pencil and paper in order to get it done by tuesday, then I can show whatever I've got to the rest.

ZZZ Have absolutely no inspiration to blog and no initiative to do other more -cough- productive stuffs.

SDMA later at night, coupled with maths homework, and a powerpoint that I've procrastinated for so long in doing (all thanks to GOHSERMING!).

Lol, sentosa post up next.
I'm tired.

EAGLE EYE WOOHOO :D

2008-10-17T23:08:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA THE END OF EXAMS IS HERE :D

And i'm feeling like a freaking high idiot HAHAHAHA. Throughout the entire day I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that after the CID paper the two week long toture was going to be OVER HAHAHAHA OVER OVER OVER :D

Maths was a killer though. Really felt damn screwed by it. Ohwell. Knew I wouldn't have done a spectacular job for paper2 in the first place T_T Sad. After the last CID script was collected everyone was cheering like mad HAHA made the entire's studying and mugging period all worthwhile.HAHA.

Then sylvia lizhen meien junkang edmund and me went to tiong to watch EAGLE EYE :D HAHAHA Our lunch was freaking pathetic though, one mcchicken each (exception being edmund HOR haha) due to the lack of time, cos we caught the 1.10pm movie and it was already 12.47 or sth. Edmund was very unlucky and sprained his ankle in school, so we all were NICE PEOPLE and were putting him as our first priority HAHAHA (see sylvia i'm nice)

Shia Labeouf was good in the movie, I'll admit, but the storyline rocked socks even more HAHA! Though it reminded me a little of transformers though HAHA with the same lead actor and the talking and thinking robots and all.

Initially sylvia was reluctant to watch lo, and I was a little surprised that no one knew what's it about, since it was all over the tv with the trailers and stuffs :X And the start of the movie didn't help. HAHAHAHA me and sylvia even went so far as to think that we got into the wrong room cos HAHAHAHA it was just.. different luh lmao. We all shared one popcorn and one large drink and haha meien got the free waterbottle HAHAHAHA Still say very cute somemore lmao!

Then at the end of everything we all were highhighhigh! Haha, with the exception of the guys lol. Then after crapping for awhile and making a fool out of ourselves we went home ): sobs It was fun while it lasted! :D

Next thing on the list of fun: MONDAY'S SENTOSA OUTING WOOHOOOO :D Am crossing my fingers that it doesn't rain on monday and that it'll be a b.l.a.s.t :D

YAY I LOVE MY LIFE NOW HEEHEE!

Sidenote: Edmund was being hilarious today at JE HAHA I laughed out loud for very long HAHAHAHA Freakin hilarious AHAHAHAHA

Back from a haitus :D

2008-10-11T18:36:00.004+08:00

Recently I've been too busy worrying about the dreaded endofyears and trying to cram all the required materials into my puny brain that i've (quite obviously) left this blog rotting and on the road to its death T_T

Haha, weirdly enough I never really realised how difficult it was to actually scrape a decent grade for all the subjects. Used to think it was really simple but not anymore lol. Perhaps its just cos its the third year and all, with new full-subject subjects and all. ZZZ.

Really missed sec1 and sec2 life mann ):

Had a (not so) eventful self-study period. Mugged the entire weekend + monday & tuesday. Gave up totally on wednesday due to overexertion of my poor braincells. Giving my brain a chance to perform homeostasis. Yupp. (nods head)

Dang. Too much bio reading recently already D:

Oh which reminds me, I've done the meme quiz :D Thanks to kristalynn HAHAHAHA

Qianqi
Seokyin
Sylvia
Weilin
Natalie
Yingho
Jiali
Justin
Yunfei
Cynthia
Joonteen
Anise
Kristalynn
Junhao
Lianghui
Kelvin
Serming
Wenzhong
CharleneTan
Ben
Bingle
Yinghao
Shuyinn
Jingyen
Anise (again)
Cailing. (HAHA thanks to anise luh hahahaha)
God
Grace
Nah, that's for me to know and you to guess. (That'll take very long though ahaha!)
Hope you won't take as long as I did for this HAHAHA ;D

Phew! Finally done :D Time to go mug (again) alr ):

ZZZZZZZ

So breakable.

2008-09-21T00:55:00.002+08:00

Was chatting online and realised that actually, _ are such fragile things, so easily broken, yet it takes so long to recover from it or to even try to put it back together. When you think you don't really care, something comes and threaten to destroy it, and its only then do you find out that you actually can't live without it.

Its like breathing to you - it comes so naturally that you forget you need it.

confused. torn between wanting and needing.
How?

Pizza makes people happy woohoo :D

2008-09-13T10:44:00.006+08:00

Replies to tags :D

Sophia: hahaha sure LOL one of these days when we're both free. Then we shall talk :D

Natalie: HEEELOOOOO HAHAHA D; i know i wished i didn't but HAHA hope it was fun

Stephanie: heyyo stephanie :D Long time no see alr ): lets have 2b outing one of these days

Yunfei: TWIN! <3> NJRC ROCKED SOCKS! Yay we owned! <3> Nah i'm not emo already lo I'm going to change haha

Natalie: Heyy! Thanks :D

Xunhong: Thanks loads :D

Cherie: hellocherierierierie :D i miss you too ): and my laughter isn't crazy teeheehee

Yunfei: Haha thanks :D YES I'M DAMN PROUD OF THM AND YOU TOO ♥ teehee

Jiali♥: haha yayyyyy :D why you never come on saturday to support us? haha )X hahahaha nah YAY! WE OWNED! ♥

zhixin: haha thanks :D

meien: YEA HAHA FINALLY LO WOOHOO ♥

weilin: HELLOS WEILIN YES I LOVE YOU TOO :D

Phew, finally done yay! x)

Aye, a week of mundane school life and homework piling up has just gone past, but it ended on a freakingly high note cos RVCC ROCKED TH CANTEEN YSTD HAHA. (Nahh not say rocked it but we sure made a hell of a noise there :D)

Before I talk about rvcc lemme first say something that's seriously overdued but still... HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO REMEMBERED (and also weilin and cherie! :D My hand still has the remenants of your zig marker drawings there you know HAHA). This is really very very late but THANK YOU RVCC TOO for your uber loud birthdaysong and all the joy we've had haha. I think we had successfully stunned everyone over there at ssc man HAHA.

Okay, now back to yesterday. mrsuria and mrteo treated the whole of comclub to a pizza treat for winning so many awards + the championshipaward. So YAY hahaha after njrc debriefing (cien don't be sick don't take the word literally -.- rofl) we briefed the entire club on the next three competition (FLL, SDMA, StrITwise) and let them make their choice.

Then it was pizza timeeee <3> haha had really really loads of fun making sure that the sec1s interact with each other (ahemcrossgenderahem) HAHA so hilarious. Then after an hour of fun and lame spastic things we went back to the lab and cleared 70 pumpings WOOHOO :D so embarrasing cos charlene.m saw us and she and jiayi stunned hahahaha. Then after that we dismissed them, did some admin work and cleared out the lab haha. Well done everyone! At least we've managed to make yesterday rather successful :D Hope we'll get more chances to have fun and bond the club yo :D <3>

Eeeyer supposedly we're going to watch wall.e today BUT I CAN'T GO SOBS. Therefore I am currently stuck at home and feeling all envious rawr!

Shall go and do homework now ): zzzz.

NJRC had taught me so many things this year. For the past two years it was just a competition to me. One that was time consuming and makes everyone so stressed out that the meaning of joining it was almost gone. But then came this year, and it changed everything. I've learnt how difficult it actually was to get everyone together as a club, I've learnt how small things one does can affect everyone else, and, most importantly, I've learnt that njrc's not just a competition. Its more than that. Its one that makes everyone realise how important each and every person is, and only if everyone plays their part can we succeed. Just like how we've succeeded this year. Rock on rvcc, even though its us sec3s last year, we'll always be there supporting you. Lets bring comclub to greater heights, my dear family, and show that we're capable of great things! <3> :D

UTTERLY STUNNED (in a great way :D)

2008-09-06T22:47:00.005+08:00

Oh. My. God.
I'm seriously still freaking stunned.

RVCC WON THE CHAMPIONSHIPS FOR NJRC IN THE SECONDARY CATEGORY!

LIKE OMGWTHBBQYAY!?

CONGRATS TO ZHIJIE AND APOLLO! YOU MADE US REALLYREALLY PROUD YA KNOW? :D

This is like really the dream come true for us can? I know rvcc's been waiting and waiting and working so so hard for its very first big break and THIS IS IT :D

(zomg i'm still hyperventillating as though i've just heard the news for the very first time, even though its already been 5 whole hours :X :/)

tough to think that time's running out for all of us like water through our cupped hands [cliched as it sounds (i know) its true luh. you wouldn't know how it feels unless you're going through this feeling ): ]. And just when everything we've ever hoped for, everything that we've ever worked so darn hard for is coming true and turning out to be ours.

I don't care how this will sound like to anyone who doesn't understand how close we're now, but I love every single one of you in rvcc. I don't care how you take this and intepret it as. I just want to let you all know I reallyreally love you all to teeny tiny bits and seeing us part is something I hope can be put off till the very very last moment.

Better yet, don't let it happen at all.

To aphrodite:

Roar, I know I've not been the best leader to you all, and I've made you all pissed off and irritated and bushuang with me countless and countless of times until I think you all also sian diao already. I didn't manage to get us into the presentation finals, nor did I secure any awards for you all as your teamleader and I'm reallyreally sorry and guilty ): Seeing all the other teamleaders managing to make their teams shine and be outstanding... well, it just really made me feel like I didn't do much to help. So here's a big SORRY ): for you all yea.

(to qianhui/yuching/& especially weisheng!) JIAYOU FOR NEXT YEAR'S NJRC AGAIN! Don't emo and think about this year's results. Rather, work harder next year and try to get something for both yourself and the club! Prove that you can do it!

(to raffles) Sighs its our last year in njrc with rvcc already and I've let everyone down): sorry i didn't manage to make this year a even more eventful and memorable one ): )x

Will post about the real NJRC08 experience tomorrow when I have the time :D Am damn drained now.
Please don't be sad.

Almost gone, but not quite

2008-08-31T15:58:00.009+08:00

I realise I've literally dissappeared off the face of the ~~earth~~ blogging world recently. Don't have much of a choice yea, what with njrc preperations, common tests, and loads of homework *shrugs*.

Wanted to go Comex with the comclubbers to have a look-see and check out the tablets and mp3s there but unfortunately couldn't make it. SORRY TWIN! And no lo sylvia I didn't pangsehed her. It was a problem with circumstances is all :D

-start of random thought-

Random-friendly-orange-dinosaur-shuyinn just talked to me on msn like a few hours ago about tomorrow's booth-material-buying thing. I can like, forsee, that it's gonna be pure chaos man. Hopefully no one will get lost or something ._. hahaha nah just kidding

-end of random thought-

New skin, new week of holidays, and a new shot at making this year all worthwhile. Jiayou everyone, we've only got less than a week to make it all work and show to everyone that we're actually better than what they think we are.

I♥rvcc

2008-08-24T11:42:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so so sick and so so tired and so so worn out.

And so so lost.

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Its really true isn't it? That you'll start to treasure your time with the people you know you'll miss only when its near the last time for everything.

"After this, everything would be soon be a memory and seem like a dream yea?"

How true.
Heartwrenchingly so.

2008-08-09T16:16:00.002+08:00

What is happening to me? If only life came with a handbook, then I'd have known what to do.

Over the 2 weeks recently I've been thinking about alot of stuffs and realised many things. How
come I just can't be happy when i'm with _? Why am I so idiotic?

NJRC's coming very soon in 3 weeks/4 weeks time and I'm totally unprepared for it. Its just too short a period of time.

Somebody, grant me more time! D:
I ask myself this everyday: do I want to know more about you and the pain that you're going through?
And why do I feel so painful inside whenever you're sad?

OBS! ♥

2008-07-27T01:08:00.009+08:00

Ohmygosh OBS REALLY ROCKED!

I ♥ NILAUTAMA!

Teehee. Many things happened during these 5 days and (as hard as it is to believe it) I think the 15 of us really more or less bonded together and got to know each other even better! ♥ Although it was tiring but it was all worth it lo!

Mmmm lemme see if i can remember all the things that happened.

DAY #1:

Went to school and chionged last minute homework before we had to gather in the gallery. Then after waiting for a long time we finally went to the open area in front of the generaloffice to wait and gathered in our groups [GROUP15! :D ahahahah]. Realised that there was exactly 10 guys to 5 girls HAHA ratio 1:2 lawl.

So we set off after headcount/attendance taking etc and reached Punggol Jetty in around an hour plusplus? Met our instructor fongfong (♥!) and waited. Had icebreaker-ish games and halfway it rained ): Wore ponchos and tried (unsuccessfully) to protect our dear belongings and finally went up the boat.

When we reached Pulau Ubin we had to walk from the jetty to the shore where campsite2 was, and it was this long road that only had railings on one side, then yayun was afraid that we'll fall -.- LOL Met up with the guys in our group (cos we got on different boats) and went to put our bags at Block5 ahahaha. Yayun and TianQi were our daddy and mummy for the day ahahaha so hilarious can (:

Couldn't really remember what we did but we had the utamatree (which got damaged by dogs over the night ): ) and the trustfall (which was damn qian4bian3).The packing and stock taking was the worse/most hectic/boring thing that we did lo next to the lastday's cleaning duties ugh. haha

Cooked, pitched tent, dinnered, bathed, gathered at the tree, reflected, played, climbed up the 101 wishing steps and slept. Could still remember that I thought it wasn't so bad for day one lo ahhaha wasn't really wrong lawl

-end of day one-

DAY #2:

Will continue some other time :X :D

2008-07-19T13:48:00.002+08:00

Quick post, cos i'mma going piano after this. Sorry everyone, but if you hate rants/sad stuff i suggest you skip my post.

I see things from the sidelines sometimes, but most of the time i'm stuck right smack in the middle of everything and the sides of the entire issue gets blurred. I don't claim to be all knowing or anything, but I know.

I'm not stupid you know, I do have eyes and ears and a mind. I do know that some things aren't as simple as they look, and even though i'm not supposed to know, I already do, and it doesn't make things become the way they were if i just act.

You don't know what's going on with me, hell, do you even care? I just wish that sometimes you'd open your eyes to everything that's going on around you and realise it.

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I know its getting unbearable, and I agree. Things change sometimes and you can't get them back anymore. I know what we've said sometimes in passing may affect you, and I'm sorry. We don't meant them but I guess its our fault.

I am coming to this point in my life whereby I just don't want to think about it and bother about it anymore. Its just the start, but I'm already failing and falling, how am i supposed to continue on and make everyone proud just like I promised?

I don't want to feel this way, but I already am.

2008-07-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

Read kristalynn's blog just now and i'm just feeling so guilty.

TO KRISTALYNN MY DEAR:

Hey my dear, I don't know if it's me or isit the other seniors, but yes i agree too, thr's always a limit to how much one can take, and even though we're seniors we shouldn't order you all around and stuffs ): sorry dearie. If you feel that its like this again next time (hopefully thr isn't but yea) thn just tell us yea?

I'msorryi'msorryi'msorry.

I know a thousand sorrys won't make things rewind, but I hope you'll forgive us all.

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cca used to cheer me up considerably to no end, but nowadays I just don't feel the love like I used to ya know?

Its like as though I've changed.

I used to look forward to going to school just for the tuesdays and fridays with the comclubbers. cca was the bright spot on the horizon for me as the people there are all the ones I zihigh with, cry with, emo with, get angry with.

Now...

True, we're still together, going (more or less) strong, and still as one. But lately I just don't get that sense of love and all that I had for comclub.

I don't know if its just me changing or what, but I don't want this to happen. So many things have changed, and comclub's one of the only constants in my life. If my feelings for it were to change I think there wouldn't be any form of order any more in life.

Maybe its cos of the people, or maybe its just cos of the many many things that's making life so damn irritating and sucky, but sometimes change isn't good, cos its irreversible.

I just am so tired right now. I don't wanna think about all these things. Especially not about you.

2008-07-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

I used to think it would all work out fine.
Guess I was wrong.

You know what they say, the higher your expectations, dreams, and hopes, the harder and faster you'll fall when you find out the truth eventually.

This is what you get when you're a hopeless _.
Sighs.

2008-07-13T20:51:00.005+08:00

I am speechless.
Things have been getting more and more difficult to bear. There's just so many things that I wished that I could tell you, yet I can't, because I just don't want to know what will happen if I did tell you everything.

I'm not going to school tomorrow because of a certain disability (haha minor minor one lah) that I had so suddenly gotten yesterday night. Went for CIP balloon selling today at City Hall and OUCH the pain was so darn intense luh hurhur but anyway, the balloons and the children over there were damn cute luh ahahah.

Was having quite a good shot at selling all of our (nat me and yayun's) balloons at Funan there that we even went back (rather it was nat who went back lah cos i couldn't bear to walk all th way back in my... condition ugh i feel so pathetic) and got a second batch of balloons but lo and behold we got chased away by the security guard there.

And to think that Funan really had alot of kids there. Didn't really believe it at first when the bubbletea stall auntie told us (we were having our 10 minute break there. All the walking's tiring ohkay? :D). But then we went to 'check it out' and HAHA we got peopleeeee :D

[Oh and we brought one balloon home each :D HAHAHAHA felt like a child when i was coming back on the mrt with yayun and nat lo. Plus, they both used the helium in their balloons to make their voices sound damn chipmunk-like lo. SO DARN HILARIOUS ;D]

Since she was chosen, don't gripe and moan and complain that you can't stand her anymore, becuase you just have to. If you really think that she's overbearing, demanding, and unreasonable, then tell her to her face in a nice and respectful way.
Today was a happyhappy dayyyy :D
because balloons makes people happy :D
Constructive criticism is helpful and important, but its never going to help you nor her if you are just going to continue to flame her (either behind her back or otherwise). And influencing others is just not going to work too, because if they really believe in what you say, they would already have thought that way even before you planted the seeds of doubt (if any) in them.

I don't want to know because I'm afraid.

2008-07-12T22:02:00.004+08:00

Today was speech day and I woke up at 5.30 just to reach school EARLIER to sort out filming equipment and where we were supposed to be stationed at.

Ran alot today up and down, and there were so many things that could have gone wrong (like the last minute tripods we got and the tapes that were given heng-ly by the teachers). We were in the slight-danger-zone at the start cos all th rv-ians were already coming in to be seated when we're still not done yet. ohwells

Had a nasty encounter with 3 brainless sec1s. Can't believe it. Were we that childish when we were their age?

Will blog about the actual events some other time. Am reallyreally tired.

Silence is sometimes all that there is to us.

2008-07-11T22:45:00.004+08:00

Whenever I feel like blogging I never have the time to, but when I do, the words just get caught in my throat/brain/body.

Its never possible to make everyone happy, and today was the perfect example. We tried, yes we really did try, to make things better, but then came along this incident and everything changed.

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I know that I’ve failed you, and I’m sorry for being such a disappointment. We will work harder, and I guess time is not a factor anymore. We have to grow up, and fast, even if it means risking everything just to make it right, we will do it. We won’t let _ and _ people ruin us, and neither would we let them influence everyone and cause us all to die right in front of our eyes.

We WILL keep us going,
that is my promise.

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Today was such a disappointment. I never knew that you all were like this. I thought you all would know when and where must you draw the line between jokes and the real thing, but I guess not everyone saw the line today.

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The past can't be changed, but what can be changed is what happens today and in the days to come.

2008-07-03T20:54:00.009+08:00

Aye, so I've been horribly on hiatus for a VERY long time already. Was thinking through certain stuffs and I came to the conclusion that it all was so not worth it.

Haven't had time to blog/post or even just to write about comclub's camp, and it's like, a damn overdued post, so i'll post the first part of it here (:

Okay, so i'm going to blog about COMCLUB'S 2D1N CAMP ;D

On the whole I thought that all the organizers (which includes all the groupleaders and facilitatorssss :D!) did a great job :D YAYYYEEE ;D So hopefully we'll have a camp every year HAHA :D

Kay luh, in the morning all the organizers met up in LT4 to get ready for the camp at a not-so-ungodly-but-still-quite-early time of 8.30. Then me sophia kristalynn and meien went to the pullup bars to get ready the strings with biscuits attached to them for the game.

Crapped and joked around already then we went to the canteen, where chengyu, sylvia, shuyinn and serming were, trying to make the fresh "delicious" fruit juice for the icebreakers. Then chengyu so -.- didn't blend properly, then there were so many cups with the fruit still inside partially unblended lo! hahahahaha!

Okay, then at around 9.30 the people started coming in, and after everyone was there and settled down the NJRC and camp groups were announced.

YAY GO APHRODITE! ;D

hahahaha Me weisheng and raffles were the only ones in my campgroup cos jiahao didn't come O.O lawl ponned siaaaaaa.

So initially it was damn awkward and silent in my group luh, but after the icebreakers the 3 games (splat, entangle, and follow the leader) plus a small round of lao3 ying1 zhuo1 xiao3 ji1 (the one where everyone stand behind the mother "chicken" -- which happened to be sophia haha! -- and try not to get caught by the lao3ying1). Then it was damn cool lawl, cos we all chiong ah and ran one quarter of a round together, like a flock of chickens like that HAHAHA ;D

After icebreakers was lunch, and we had the holy chicken rice (again LOL). Then we lagged very badly, and in the end we overshot abit, cos Mr Suria settled the camp consent forms thing damn long, then in the end also didn't talk to us. So we waited for awhile more before going to the various places for our station games.

First for my group (who was group 1 :D) we had the three-legged race, which we lost T.T lawl, so sad right!? D: ahahahaha then we went to the comlab outside to play the leg scrabble, which was to collect pebbles with various letters on them, and thn move them with our leg to form the words rvinfocommclub

Kay, then we went to uh outside the music room there to do the 8 tasks to get the puzzle pics and HAHAHA 3 PEOPLE IS BETTER THAN HAVING FOUR ;D did 17 pumping, 50 claps and ran like hell. had to get others to write good stuff about our group and the comments were damn crap one but they still accept :D

Then had a short 15 minute break, where we went into the LT3 to enjoy and blow aircon awhile.

Hahaha, will post the second half some other time :D

I thought that I wouldn't have to worry about it cos it'll never be known, but just when I thought that nothing else can become more screwed up than it already is, I found out the truth. I wish I could take back whatever it was, but its too late.
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Don't think just cos I am ___ means that everything you did to me and my friends became null and void, because words said and things done can never be taken back/swallowed back/erased just like that with a single word. I don't really care how sad or how appologetic you are/is/were/whatever. Point is that enough is enough, you can just remember this: if you disrespect me / insulted me, I'm fine with it, because its just between me and you. But if you insult my friend/disrespect my friend, then I'm sorry, but you're unforgivable.

2008-06-26T20:32:00.002+08:00

Seriously speaking, its not as easy as you think it is.

Must. Stay. Strong. For. Everyone.

Yepp, must stay strong :D
you are such a liar, to both yourself and everyone else.

2008-06-09T23:23:00.011+08:00

RAWR.
Somtimes, I wish I didn't know you. Just sometimes.
Blogging doesn't help in situations like these.
Sighs, it was such a bad idea. If I didn't know about _, I would have been happier. ARGH. Ignorance is such bliss.
RAWR.

2008-06-09T23:23:00.010+08:00

Why does it seem like everyone's enjoying himself/herself out of this warm humid country we call Singapore, and I'M STUCK HERE? O.O

whatever lol

This had been one long sian-ed week with no outings or any interesting happenings. Makes me feel like going out just for a long walk to clear my head lmao.

Its bad enough reading everyone else's blogs and realising that they're there enjoying themselves and being happy because they have everything they could ever wanted, while I'm here with nothing. Cheering up doesn't solve a thing, it just makes everyone else happier, ` cos they can't stand the sight of you and your sad face.

Give me a reason to continue on.

2008-06-07T22:12:00.011+08:00

Got tagged (in a very unconventional way - to me - haha) by twin to do this quiz, so here it is
:D

What do you think your ideal best friend should be like?
hmmm.... actually I don't think anyone will ever find THE ideal best friend, cos everyone has their flaws and all. But I guess the main traits they should have is that they understand me and uh when we're together we HAVE FUN ;D

If you had a dream come true what would it be?
Have fun all day round :D and (perhaps) getting a decent mark for chinese and physics D:

Whose life would you want to take away the most?
Uh, my own? :D

What would you do with a billion dollars?
Put it in a bank? Spend da bling on something cool like a PSP maybe :D and some books LMAO

Do you dig your nose?
Gawd what a weird question.

Which is more blessed, loving someone, or being loved by someone?
Uh, both equally blessed.

Can you whistle?
Yepyep :D

Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Recently ah? Hanging out with twin and my CID group and 3L CHALET <3 ;D

Do you believe in ghosts?
Maybeeeeee?

If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do?
Um, I'll be veryveryextremely sad I guess haha aye

How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Having white hair and all haggard, all cos of the mugging from 12++ long years of school. URGH

Who are currently the most important people to you?
My parents and all my friends :D <3

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
An absolutely crazy, high-off-the-charts twin of mine who's crazy over a certain supernatural being. tsktsk :D

Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Depends on whether happy being married HAHA.

What does your favourite kind of shampoo smell like?
Like peach. If there's even one that smells like that HAHA

How would you rate the perfection of your life right now?
Uh, okay-ish bah. 70%? Its surely better than when I'm mugging for th exams lol, but not as
great as it seems

What type of people do you hate?
Uh, people who are downright insulting and look down on others I guess.

Anyone who wants to do this quiz by all means go ahead LOL :D Lazy to tag others luh hahaha

2008-06-07T22:12:00.003+08:00

Was at cailing's blog just now, haha.

TO CAILING: HAVE FUN AT PENANG AYE? heehee (although you won't see this until you come back... ): lol)

Recently I've been just bloghopping here and there, and I realised that so many people (at least to me luh) have sort of went on hiatus. Makes me feel damn damn slack for blogging luh HAHA ohwell

[and here's my "will blog later" post twin! haha can't say I never blog yea? haha your blog's dead leh updateupdateupdate!]

Am so. darn. excited! about the upcomming comclub camp luh (shivers) hopefully it'll be a blast or something, since its the first one we've ever had. JIAYOU PEOPLE! Lets make it a suceeeesssssssssssssssss :D :D :D

ohkay, since there's nothing else to post I shall stop here.

tata :D

2008-06-03T16:15:00.001+08:00

Haha, just some replies to tags :D will blog more later :D :D :D

*mellu (nat): YO HAHA yea it was damndamndamn fun luh haha (:

*mellu (charlene): CRAZYYYYYY <3>

*mellu (Bing Le): LOL no lo you than more emo lo! should rename you as "emo-bingle" HAHA ;D ooer yea lo why you have ccaaaaaaaaaaaa? ): :/ haha :D

*mellu (yunfei): HAHA yepyep i did had fun :D heehee yea lo so true right LOL hee <3

*mellu (cailing): LOL yea i know what you mean. somehow it just seems very difficult t blog about events yea? :D seeyou soooon! <3

just realised that my way of replying tags is weird xD haha

2008-05-30T12:28:00.002+08:00

You know when sometimes they say something to you, and its not so much of a question as a statement. `cos its true, and no matter how much you deny it, you both know that you're lying.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

What an undestatement of the year.

3L CHALET ROCKED ;D <3

2008-05-29T21:48:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHA ZOMG CHALET REALLY ROCKED LUH HEEHEE ;D

I think i can really say that I love 3L :D <3<3

okay its been like 2 days since I left the chalet (cos I went back home earlier due to a - coughs- stupid random stranger -coughs- who stepped on my glasses HAHA) so I went to charlene.mok's blog to uh refresh my memory :D

Okay, so in the morning at 11 I went to JE library to meetup with the people that're planning the 2D1N comclub camp :D stayed there for only an hour, and I felt like an absolute slacker cos I didn't really do much ):

Then at 12 I left and went to meet the 3Lamppost peeps :D heehee. Waited for charlene.m, olivia, yinshan and a few other people and then we went off to pasir ris to buy fooooood :D

Spent a hundred over dollars there and then we went off to meet tianqi and choonpin (who went to the chalet first).

Settled down awhile then the girls went off with most of the guys go cycling :D wahahahaha it was damn fun, though we lost the guys halfway through the ride (cos we were playing at the playground like little kiddies LOLL ;D) So after that we were dead tired, then went back chalet and started the fire :D

First time I go chalet the fire is girls start one can?! haha Then choonpin said that the sausages were the guys' brothers (hinthint). Damn sick luh lol. Then while some of us were cooking the food and starting the fire, some of the girls were in the bathroom making the water balloons hahaha!

After bbq most of the guys don't know dissappeared to where (I forgot/didn't really noticed) and left jiahao wangzhe and choonpin in the chalet with all the girls. At first we were playing cheat, then became heart attack. Wangzhe hit damn hard one can? LOL I got hit on both hands in a game -.0 lol While we were playing heartattack and cheat some of the girls were tying their hair in the twit way and it was damndamndamn funny hahahahah Then we went out to play dare-or-dare, and we had all sorts of weird dares from asking for phone numbers to asking some random guy to feed us to doing the "dance" around the tree thing HAHA ;D

Went back to the chalet and found the rest of the guys, and we went to the beach to play waterbomb fight (where I accidentally broke 2 waterbombs onto myself whilst WALKING towards the beach like so o.o -.- haha) Tio bombed by the guys until damn badly luh like kns lol and then we (the girls) trooped back to the chalet to get our stuffs and bathe at the public toilet

After we went back to the chalet we went to cheers to buy drinks and went to the outside of the chalet and ate our cupnoodles, afterwhich we played true or true. Damn scandalous lol. Minping and Charlene.M damn innocent :D the rest of us... lol ;D Heng no state name lo if not I (plus th rest of us) would reallyreally be dead lol

After the guys finally let us have the tv we all watched ghost ship! Not scary at all luh, more of disgustingly gross. hahahaha But the little girl was damn ke3 lian2 ): Char.M spent those 2 hours smsing under her jacket, and all the guys were saying her lol. After the movie some of us were hungry cos it was alr 3 plus in the morning, so we (being charleneMok cailing me wenzhong choonpin bingle malcolm yuejun and jiahao) went to Mac and waited for 45 minutes to eat Mac's breakfast LOL.

We went to cheers to kill time and bought some gummies ;D FINALLY after 4am came and went we all ordered haha. At the chalet we all went to sleep and olivia and cailing and yinshan were all pissed with the guys cause they were making too much noise and they couldn't sleep. Poor olivia and bingle lo, must go back to school for cca D:

In the end I only remembered drifting off to sleep sometime at 5 plus 6? and was half-woken up a few times when charlene mok started to squash me lol.

Then the girls went to mac's for breakfast again and went to escape first :D some nicenice uncle bought family package for us so we got in and all. then after awhile the guys joined us. have nothing much to say about escape cause its bascially the samesamesame! :D inverter-ed/viking-ed/rainbow-ed/go-kart-ed again and again and (after a particularly nauseous ride on the viking) we went back to chalet to rest.

Went to eat lunch with minping sihui charlenemok tianqi and casper, and after that whilst heading back to the chalet, we all met the others who wanted to go to the red house. So me and sihui went with wenzhong malcolm choonpin leongyu yuejun jiahao cailing and anise. It was raining and the rain was reallyreally weird, like suddenly it was heavy then suddenly it wasn't. Brrrr >< (shivers)

In the end the guys didn't go in as wenzhong hurt himself, and we all went to this guard house to rest awhile before actually heading back, with the guys all emo ): don't know why ):

Then at the chalet, we waited for the rain to stop before going to bathe. Played yuejun's PSP (haha malcolm i'm going to be as good as you soooooon :D) while the guys did don't know what and the girls plus casper (i think) played daidi.

Lagged and cailing and anise went to bathe outside while the guys took turns to bathe
inside the room. Then blahblahblah and yuanlong came. Then me and charlene mok
packed our stuffs and went home D:

Haha it was damn *toot* to go home just like that lo. Then we were saying that we
wanted to get off at the next stop and go back LOL rawrrawrrawr! Must. Have. 3L. Outing!
<3 hahahaha

Man, next time we should have 4D3N chalets instead! More fun :D and more time heehee!
<3<3<3

whoa! am so tired now. this was a damn long post. will post some more tomorrow! :D

2008-05-18T18:35:00.006+08:00

Recently, life has just become reallyreally mundane and all.

Was thinking through about all the various facets of my life currently and I just think that sometimes you'll never understand what others go through unless you've gone through it yourself. The feeling of being looked down upon just because you didn't proved your worth is downright weirdassed.

i keep feeling as though i'm being so fake, cause i'm just hiding all th pain and everything inside. i can't show it all to anyone, cause i've promised everyone time and again that i'll stay happy for them. but can i really do it? ):

REPLIES TO TAGS :D

*mellu! (nat):

don't worry if i'm not wrong we didn't get you an undersized one :D

*mellu! (rach):

haha thanks! :D i love this bs lol. "love at first sight" LMAO. ayeaye agreed . so many classes having pink clstee.

*mellu! (nat):

hahahaha the classtee's going damn damn well luh :D who cares if thr's too many things thr :D we love it can alr HEEHEE YAY we're getting our classtee THIS THURSDAYYY WOOTZ hahahaha :D

*mellu! (cherie):

HELLOOOO DEARIEEE yesyes i missed you loads too ): must.catch.up.after.x-country! :D

*mellu! (SM):

YOYOYO SM ;D hahahah thank you :D my nicenice fab taste mah (:

*mellu! (jiali♥):

hahaha ayeaye ): one day we should catch up sometimes heeheeeeee :D lmao aww ): don't worry, its ohkay, i don't think you'll fail lo! you pro kia :D jiayouz dearie, I believe you can pass with flyyyying colors!

♥♥♥♥♥

i'm sick of being emo. but i can't help but BE emo. ohshitohshitohshit.

thanks twin, i know you'll always be thr for me. i (hopefully) will be able t pick myself up and start with a clear un-emo mind again. <3

Lalala :D

2008-05-16T19:22:00.007+08:00

YAY NEW BLOG ;D

YAY NEW SKIN ;D

YAY YAY YAY ;D

hahaha kay i'm weird, and I only changed blog `cos my ebloggy one just blanked out all of a sudden and I don't have a single idea why :X lol.

Went out to settle the 3L classtee thing today with cailing, and by a sheer stroke of luck we met bingle with the other PSLs at JEC. So in the end cailing, bingle and me went to the artserve shop to make our classtee. (Haha, the deciding of sizes of the shirt was damn lol though hahaha :D)

[ Please please please let them finish the classtee by next thursday so that we can give everyone before the chalet :x *crosses fingers!* ]

Tomorrow will be a Sunday, and qianqi and joonteen'll be coming over to do stupid CID. rawr I'm sianed out luh, cause this PW thing seems to be so darn tiring luh.

testingggg
I'm so tired of all these pretending.

zzzz :D

2008-05-15T21:58:00.001+08:00

Like hurhurhur.
After HOURS of meddling with my stupid BLOG its finally done, complete with new posts and new skin.

Whew.